2019 Check-In :-)

Hello Internet people!

I find myself drifting in and out of this space b/c as much as I love photos & sharing, I don’t believe that real life looks like sunshine and fun 24/7. Actually feels more like the opposite. So when the light-filled moments do arrive occasionally, I get to appreciate.

Nowadays, my creativity has been feeling more weighty than ever. That was a gift given to me after an elongated season of feeling & sitting through the valleys of life. Life is really hard, especially as people called to be light & salt in a broken world. The pressure can be very real.

I really fought to be fully present. In the pain. in the disappointment. In the utter awareness of my humanity. Honestly, I’m still knee-deep. I get humbled every day. And I don’t think this will ever end. Actually, even coming to terms with that took a long time.

In exchange for my out-of-this-world idealist ways, I gained priceless life lessons & friendships. And I’m still moving forward. Turns out even in the moments when I felt like my feet were dragging, I was making progress (!!!) That gives me so much hope. 💖 To get up every day & still choose to believe for my monumental dreams to come to pass.

I think a part of me stopped trusting Internet spaces to be a safe place to share & express. So I’ve been ok with posting the surface things of life. Nothing much beyond that. Meanwhile, I’ve been compiling an empire of secrets in my real-time. And there’s nothing quite like this thrill I’ve been feeling. Details reserved only for my real-life people. Maybe I’ll share something soon. Maybe never, ha. But for now, I’m ok with keeping my distance. Maybe you should live a little too instead of doing it all just “for the gram.” 💙

[Originally posted on my Instagram on July 29, 2019]